I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About my future. What I want to accomplish, where I want to be. Sometimes it feels as if I'm not good enough for anything, or anyone for that matter.  

Example One: -School starts January 7th. I haven't even made an effort to enroll. I do not have a job anymore to pay for the registeration fee, nor do I have enough to pay for calls. I assed myself out on a Choral scholarship after I dropped out in March. On top of that, my father made too much money this past year for me to even qualify for financial aid. Of course I can get a job next year, I'm extremely positive about that, but that doesn't help me paying for school in january. So goes another semester I could be closer to starting my life. Now, I have to wait until August to actual be considered "starting" college. Stuff like that just makes me feel so worthless. I see everyone from my class getting started with there lives and I'm still stuck.  

Example Two: I have a great idea of where I would like to major, but as far as a specific field in a computer area, I'm at a loss. Grapic Design is leading my choices, but there are so many other things I am better at, it is hard (heh) to make a legit choice. The fact that it HAS taken me so long to figure out what I need to do is fusterating in its own right. It is as if, the world is passing me by.  

Example Three: Well... It's not right to talk about example three... Not just yet. =/

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