I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About my future. What I want to accomplish, where I want to be. Sometimes it feels as if I'm not good enough for anything, or anyone for that matter.  

Example One: -School starts January 7th. I haven't even made an effort to enroll. I do not have a job anymore to pay for the registeration fee, nor do I have enough to pay for calls. I assed myself out on a Choral scholarship after I dropped out in March. On top of that, my father made too much money this past year for me to even qualify for financial aid. Of course I can get a job next year, I'm extremely positive about that, but that doesn't help me paying for school in january. So goes another semester I could be closer to starting my life. Now, I have to wait until August to actual be considered "starting" college. Stuff like that just makes me feel so worthless. I see everyone from my class getting started with there lives and I'm still stuck.  

Example Two: I have a great idea of where I would like to major, but as far as a specific field in a computer area, I'm at a loss. Grapic Design is leading my choices, but there are so many other things I am better at, it is hard (heh) to make a legit choice. The fact that it HAS taken me so long to figure out what I need to do is fusterating in its own right. It is as if, the world is passing me by.  

Example Three: Well... It's not right to talk about example three... Not just yet. =/

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When did hip-hop...

become this electronica r&b/pop bullshit? What the fuck is wrong with rappers that they need to synth there voices to sound like these fucking robots? T-Pain started this, but he was singing (or so I think that's what it is) then everyone just seemed to jump on that shit with Lil Wayne and Kanye leading the way. 

I dont really like Wayne, at all, but he can put some off the wall metaphors together. Power to him. But why this voice changing shit? And why decide to take the Ja Rule path and sing on EVERYONE'S FUCKING SONG! I generally have nothing but respect for Kanye West, and I still do, but why is it that he needs to do this shit too? He can actually hold a note, but it just goes out the window when you get the stupid ass synth over it...

I hate... HATE... that shit. I also hate the path these dumbass rappers are taking this music. I dont wanna sound like an "eliteist" or some rap "purest" but I just can't help but be annoyed by the lack of originality in hip-hop... Shit, in all music. I heard a song the other day on the radio (which I rarely use) and I thought it was Yellowcard. I asked a friend of mine about the song and they told me it was another group called "Second Hand Sernade"

..... I know originality is hard to come by these day, but please try not to sound so much like another group. Be you. PLEASE.

-Trust.

When life gives you apples..

Life has been alright.

Its never AMAZING, but its never horrible. I tend to exaggerate a bit when something does go wrong in life. I need to stop. Things could be a whole lot worse...

I recently quit my job at MW Tux (Mens Wearhouse sister company, just for the people not hip to retail stores). It seemed like a good idea at the time... But when another job flaked on me last second... Good idea suddenly turned bad. So I've been jobless. Its not like I haven't been looking, however, 'cause I have. Everyone is being EXTRA greasy. Haha. But, I made the mistake of not having a sure thing, so I'll deal with my problem.

But to make som extra money, AJ and I (with an added assist from Avery Greene) got back together on stage to do yet another talent show. This was actually one of the biggest shows ever ever done. There wasn't really any bad talent at all, which was good for us. We haven't had a good competition in a while. The total prize was money for first place was 300 dollars (also the most money ever for a talent show we've been in). All and all, we won and split it. Easy 300 bucks (not really.)

The actual point of this blog was to highlight another issues in my life, but as I keep typing and remembering older blogs, it just seems to be more of the same shit. I can't force myself to type any of that anymore. Maybe next time, if it gets bad enough. Anyway, i'm out.

WOW.

WOW. Who would have thought? It has been a whole year and I never even looked back at this blog since I registered. I may keep it up, I like the simplicity of the blog.

Happy New Year to everyone! More when I get home.

OR WILL THERE BE?!